{"id":6300,"date":"2011-02-15T21:57:22","date_gmt":"2011-02-15T20:57:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/?p=6300"},"modified":"2011-02-15T22:01:21","modified_gmt":"2011-02-15T21:01:21","slug":"30-days-of-truth-day-26","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/archives\/6300","title":{"rendered":"30 Days of Truth: Day 26"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/02\/Day26.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" style=\"background-image: none; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; display: inline; padding-top: 0px; border: 0px;\" title=\"Day26\" src=\"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/02\/Day26_thumb.jpg\" border=\"0\" alt=\"Day26\" width=\"595\" height=\"108\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nWow, this one isn\u2019t dark or anything. Good grief.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019d be lying if I said there weren\u2019t times where I thought of just giving up.\u00a0 I had some pretty dark times when I first moved here. Having dropped everything back in Canada to come here and falling desperately in love with my husband, the thought of leaving and going home alone was unimaginable.\u00a0 The thought of staying somewhere that made me so unhappy was also unimaginable.\u00a0 I felt like a failure in every possible way and wasn\u2019t coping very well with it at all.<\/p>\n<p>There were times where I thought it\u2019d be a lot easier to just give up, that no existence was better than the pitiful one I was living at the time.\u00a0 I don\u2019t think I ever would have had the nerve to really do anything about it and I could never do that to my husband, family and friends.\u00a0 I\u2019m sure a lot of people who suffered from depression entertained the same sorts of thoughts when they were at their lowest lows.<\/p>\n<p>They do right? &#8230; because I&#8217;d feel a lot less pathetic knowing that I wasn&#8217;t alone in that.<\/p>\n<p>Anyway, none of this is news to my regular visitors and I&#8217;m tired of talking about the bad times when I was new here. \u00a0 Things are good now. \u00a0I\u2019m glad that I saw it through and have been working to try to make things better here.\u00a0 I have great friends now, my relationship with my husband and my family is better than ever and life is really good.\u00a0 I hope to never ever have those thoughts again\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Gawd, only four days left.\u00a0 If this 30 Days meme doesn\u2019t end soon I just may give up on life afterall! UGH!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Wow, this one isn\u2019t dark or anything. Good grief. I\u2019d be lying if I said there weren\u2019t times where I thought of just giving up.\u00a0 I had some pretty dark times when I first moved here. Having dropped everything back in Canada to come here and falling desperately in love with my husband, the thought &hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6301,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[553,322,876],"class_list":["post-6300","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","","category-randoms","tag-30-days-of-truth","tag-depression","tag-memory-lane"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6300","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6300"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6300\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6303,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6300\/revisions\/6303"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/6301"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6300"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6300"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6300"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}