{"id":6256,"date":"2011-02-11T20:24:30","date_gmt":"2011-02-11T19:24:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/?p=6256"},"modified":"2011-02-11T20:43:02","modified_gmt":"2011-02-11T19:43:02","slug":"30-days-of-truth-day-22","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/archives\/6256","title":{"rendered":"30 Days of Truth: Day 22"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Day22\"<\/a>
\nOther than wishing I’d never dated this douchebag<\/a> or acted like such a shithead<\/a> when I first moved here, I think the thing I wish I hadn\u2019t done in my life is waste my opportunity for a decent education by quitting college.\u00a0 I went to college straight out of high school, which was a mistake, but a bigger mistake was quitting.<\/p>\n

I really wanted to take a year off as I had a job at the time that I could have worked full time.\u00a0 I really had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, so I thought taking some time off to figure it out was the best way to go.\u00a0 I think my family was afraid that if I didn\u2019t go then that I never would, and perhaps they were right\u2026 but I caved to the pressure and went anyway.\u00a0 I chose to take a Bachelor of Arts, mostly because it seemed closest to the things I was interested in and I knew I didn\u2019t dig science or any of the other options. Oh, and that\u2019s what my friends were taking so at least I could share classes with them.<\/p>\n

I hated it.\u00a0 To be honest I always hated school.. I think I had a touch of ADHD or something as I always had a lot of trouble concentrating. I got sidetracked easily when I\u2019d try to study, which would lead to a panic when test time came\u2026 and it didn\u2019t improve any when I got to college.\u00a0 Rather than studying and thinking of what I wanted to do with my life, I drank and partied with my friends\u2026 a LOT.\u00a0 There wasn\u2019t a single night of the week where we weren\u2019t at a club or house party.<\/p>\n

\"Halloween\"<\/a>
\n Me and my friends partying one Halloween during the college years. I\u2019m in the middle in the frog costume.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I had a GREAT time during those years, but it had nothing to do with school, it was all about the parties.\u00a0 I loved my friends and I love all the good times we had together.\u00a0 I have a million<\/em> stories about the crazy shit we got up to\u2026 but those stories don\u2019t get you anywhere when you are looking for a job, or when you are sitting around with a group of new friends and they are talking about their education and careers.<\/p>\n

While I was in college I was working part time.\u00a0 Between school, work and trying to keep up with my busy social life\u2026 something had to give and it was the thing I was the least interested in \u2013 school.\u00a0 Work gave me money and partying with my friends was fun.\u00a0 School was frustrating because I had difficulty forcing myself to study subjects I wasn\u2019t actively interested in, so the subjects I was rather meh <\/em>about (Economics, English\u2026) suffered while I did really well in ones I actually enjoyed (Psychology, Anthropology etc).\u00a0 Unfortunately the ones I did enjoy didn\u2019t make up for the others when it came down to my grades.<\/p>\n

After two and a half years, I\u2019d had enough and left college \u00a0to go to work full time.\u00a0 I had student loans, nothing to show for it, and I still had no idea what I wanted to do. \u00a0I didn\u2019t have enough credits to graduate and I was tired of building up debt for something I didn\u2019t believe in.<\/p>\n

Hindsight is 20\/20 of course.\u00a0 I wish more than anything that I had done whatever I could to make it through.\u00a0 I wish I really understood how important my education would be and how quitting would later affect me in regards to my self esteem and how I view myself on the social ladder.<\/p>\n

I wish I could go back and do it all over. \u00a0I’d get help with learning how to organize my studies and find a way to create balance between my school work and my social life, because now I feel uneducated, sometimes stupid.\u00a0 That\u2019s not a nice feeling at all, especially knowing that I have nobody but myself to blame for it.\u00a0 My younger self, I guess.<\/p>\n

I often have nightmares about school.\u00a0 I\u2019ll dream that I am in college and I walk in and don\u2019t know where to go, because it\u2019s been so long since I\u2019ve been to class that I don\u2019t remember where the rooms are.\u00a0 So I\u2019m walking through corridors lost.. or I go to class and have no idea what anyone is talking about.\u00a0 I dream that I go to class after missing weeks and weeks to find out there is a huge exam and I\u2019m looking at this pile of books not knowing where to start.<\/p>\n

Time and time again with the dreams about being back in college, lost and panicked.\u00a0 It\u2019s sad and frustrating.<\/p>\n

That is something I wish I hadn\u2019t done.\u00a0 I can\u2019t say I wish I hadn\u2019t gone in the first place, just for the sake of saving myself the student loans, because I had far too much fun and I wouldn\u2019t want to give up those memories\u2026 but I would have tried to at least get a diploma out of it as well.<\/p>\n

Perhaps I’ll go back to school one day, but it’s a little more complicated trying to do it from here. \u00a0It means becoming fluent enough in Dutch to go to school or studying remotely. \u00a0It would also depend on if we could afford it. \u00a0Maybe someday…<\/p>\n

P.S. Another thing I wish I hadn’t done is this 30 Days of Fucking Truth, I’m so over it already. \u00a0Ugh. \u00a0I will finish it though… I mean, I didn’t finish college so I should at least finish this! haha<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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