{"id":6042,"date":"2011-01-26T23:16:56","date_gmt":"2011-01-26T21:16:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/?p=6042"},"modified":"2011-01-26T23:24:02","modified_gmt":"2011-01-26T21:24:02","slug":"30-days-of-truth-day-6","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/archives\/6042","title":{"rendered":"30 Days of Truth: Day 6"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/01\/Day6.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" style=\"background-image: none; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; display: inline; padding-top: 0px; border: 0px;\" title=\"Day6\" src=\"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/01\/Day6_thumb.jpg\" border=\"0\" alt=\"Day6\" width=\"595\" height=\"89\" \/><\/a><br \/>\nThe first thing that comes to mind here is\u2026 bury my husband.\u00a0 I know, morbid right?\u00a0 I can\u2019t help it though, when I think of the absolute worst thing that could happen that I\u2019d never ever want to do, that\u2019s it.<\/p>\n<p>I have this really childish inability to deal with it as well.\u00a0 A number of times he has tried to speak to me about what will happen when he dies with the insurance and stuff like that, he\u2019s even tried to talk about what music we\u2019d like at our funerals!\u00a0 Every time he even attempts it I tear up and tell him we\u2019ll talk about it another time.\u00a0 There\u2019s always a reason why that particular moment is not the right time.<\/p>\n<p>There never will be a right time.<\/p>\n<p>Is it selfish that I sort of deep down hope that a long long time from now I am the one to go first?\u00a0 I mean I should probably wish that he does because then he\u2019s not left behind in pain, but the thought of spending any time in my life without even being able to talk to him is too much to bear.<\/p>\n<p>Christ, I\u2019m almost tearing up just trying to write this.<\/p>\n<p>Some other things I hope I never have to do\u2026<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Clean a septic tank<\/li>\n<li>Wear or change adult diapers<\/li>\n<li>Re-lose all the weight I\u2019ve lost<\/li>\n<li>Cook for someone who knows a lot about food<\/li>\n<li>Pry another <a href=\"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/archives\/4354\" target=\"_blank\">slimy chicken bone<\/a> out of my dog\u2019s mouth<\/li>\n<li>Walk barefoot over hot coals, glass or anything else stupid people try to walk on with no shoes<\/li>\n<li>Have another colonoscopy<\/li>\n<li>Eat any sort of bug or larvae, even if it\u2019s covered in chocolate<\/li>\n<li>Watch the movie <a href=\"http:\/\/www.imdb.com\/title\/tt0168629\/\" target=\"_blank\">Dancer in the Dark<\/a> again<\/li>\n<li>Touch another person\u2019s armpits<\/li>\n<li>Lose\/remove any of my visible teeth<\/li>\n<li>Live a life without dogs<\/li>\n<li>Eat <a href=\"http:\/\/nl.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Hollandse_Nieuwe\" target=\"_blank\">raw herring<\/a>, or any herring for that matter.<\/li>\n<li>Live on the streets or out of my car<\/li>\n<li>Resign myself to the fact that I\u2019ll never own a horse again<\/li>\n<li>Die without knowing what I am<em> supposed<\/em> to look like, at a normal weight<\/li>\n<li>Experience a war firsthand<\/li>\n<li>Live without internet for an extended period of time<\/li>\n<li>Work on a crab fishing boat<\/li>\n<li>Slaughter an animal<\/li>\n<li>Live with the cast of Jersey Shore<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The first thing that comes to mind here is\u2026 bury my husband.\u00a0 I know, morbid right?\u00a0 I can\u2019t help it though, when I think of the absolute worst thing that could happen that I\u2019d never ever want to do, that\u2019s it. I have this really childish inability to deal with it as well.\u00a0 A number &hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6043,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[553,464,52],"class_list":["post-6042","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","","category-randoms","tag-30-days-of-truth","tag-love","tag-xander"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6042","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6042"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6042\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6046,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6042\/revisions\/6046"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/6043"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6042"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6042"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6042"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}