{"id":5728,"date":"2010-11-21T10:04:32","date_gmt":"2010-11-21T08:04:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/?p=5728"},"modified":"2010-11-21T10:15:16","modified_gmt":"2010-11-21T08:15:16","slug":"its-fish-time","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/archives\/5728","title":{"rendered":"It’s Fish Time!!"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"80\"<\/a>
\n80 lb Black Grouper.\u00a0 Photo courtesy of Emeraldcharters.com<\/a><\/p>\n

OH YEAH! That\u2019s one bigass fish, an EIGHTY POUND FISH<\/strong> to be exact!\u00a0 You know how this works, that means I have finally reached my next goal of losing EIGHTY POUNDS!\u00a0 Omg\u2026<\/p>\n

I remember when my mother came to visit me two years ago and she had lost EIGHTY POUNDS (yes I do plan on putting that in caps every time because I am that<\/em> excited), I thought she looked like a totally different person.\u00a0 I wish I saw that in myself still, I get glimpses sometimes where I think HOLY SHIT that\u2019s not the same face that used to look back at me, but not often enough.<\/p>\n

I love those moments.<\/p>\n

I remember looking at her and feeling a mixture of pride and jealousy.\u00a0 I was so proud of her for having the willpower and motivation to lose so much weight, she is my mother and I love her.\u00a0 Another side of me was jealous when she shopped for those tiny clothes, I couldn\u2019t help it.<\/p>\n

I also remember thinking that it was a totally impossible goal for me, that there was no way in hell I could ever lose that much weight, especially since I had to lose almost twice<\/em> that much to get to a weight where I\u2019d be considered \u2018normal\u2019.<\/p>\n

Remember a while back when I did my Confessions of a Fat Girl<\/a> post and gave the comparison of me before and after having lost 50 lbs?\u00a0 I have looked at that side by side shot about a million times since then to try to keep me motivated.\u00a0 I wish I\u2019d taken full body shots along the way, but I didn\u2019t.\u00a0 The face shots help keep me going though because for some reason what I don\u2019t see in the mirror, I can see when looking back at old photos.<\/p>\n

While looking through an album from my trip with Penny to the Christmas Market in Cologne<\/a>, I saw a photo she had taken of me that day.\u00a0 I sat there for a moment in a bit of shock because I found it so hard to look at myself again.\u00a0 To think that there was a time when I found that version of myself to be acceptable enough to not do anything about it, it horrified me.\u00a0 This is going to be my new motivation photo.<\/p>\n

\"80beforeafter\"<\/a>
\nLeft<\/strong>: Me in 2008 at 308 lbs.\u00a0 Right<\/strong>: Me this week at 227 lbs.\u00a0 Almost 81 lbs<\/strong> lost.<\/p>\n

I chose the one on the right because it\u2019s the most recent photo of me, taken on Thursday by a friend while we were out painting ceramic gifts for Christmas.<\/p>\n

I can\u2019t seem to stop obsessing about how fat my arms are in it, but that\u2019s what weight issues do to you.\u00a0 No matter what the achievement, there is always something to remind you that you aren\u2019t done yet.\u00a0 I hear that no matter how much you lose or how small you get that those issues never seem to go away, that makes me a little sad.\u00a0 The good things far outweigh the bad though, so I will just have to deal with those nagging little voices in my head.<\/p>\n

I still have a long way to go, and I try to not think of the fact that I have lost so much weight and am still at a stage where other women consider themselves to be disgusting and huge and in need of a diet.\u00a0 I am proud of the weight I\u2019ve lost in spite of that evil fatty inside of me that keeps trying to bring me down.<\/p>\n

Just to keep up with tradition, do you know what else weighs 80 lbs?<\/p>\n

\"80butter\"<\/a><\/p>\n

320 sticks of butter!! <\/strong>Try carrying that around for a day and see how good it feels.\u00a0 I don\u2019t think I could again!<\/p>\n

\"80dog\"<\/a><\/p>\n

The average Bernese Mountain Dog<\/a>, that is a lot of dog.\u00a0 Photo from random internet search, couldn\u2019t find original owner.<\/p>\n

\"80rachel\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Rachel Zoe in this photo from US Magazine<\/a> in January of this year. Yikes.\u00a0 I\u2019ve lost an entire human\u2019s worth of weight!\u00a0 If I ever take the weight loss that far, please stage an intervention.<\/p>\n

So now the journey continues.\u00a0 Time to push on to 90 lbs and then, the big ONE OH OH!\u00a0 Now that will be a celebration indeed!!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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