{"id":1744,"date":"2008-10-23T13:13:59","date_gmt":"2008-10-23T11:13:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.breigh.com\/wordpress\/?p=1744"},"modified":"2010-05-31T23:19:19","modified_gmt":"2010-05-31T21:19:19","slug":"foad-thursday-my-empty-house","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/archives\/1744","title":{"rendered":"FOAD Thursday – My Empty House"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"If you had asked me a month ago if I had any space in my house I would have laughed.\u00a0 Between me, the pets, my husband and all our furniture I felt like we were completely crowded.<\/p>\n

I SO wish I felt that way again right now.<\/p>\n

My parents left this morning and if I\u2019m honest, I thought I\u2019d be ok when they left.\u00a0 There were points during their visit where I felt like I was going to go off my rocker if I didn\u2019t get a minute alone to breathe.\u00a0 After all the hustle and bustle with the renovations and Xander working from home so much over the last few months, having two extra people here who were \u2018all up in my business\u2019 was stressful at times.\u00a0 I\u2019d give anything to have them here again though.<\/p>\n

We got up at 4:15am this morning to drive them to the airport and within a few short hours, they were gone.\u00a0\u00a0 Our goodbye at the airport seemed rushed and a part of me wanted to go back and hug and kiss them both a few more times and tell them how much I love them, but I didn\u2019t because I\u2019m almost 34 years old dammit!\u00a0 I should be able to have these comings and goings without turning into a total baby.<\/p>\n

I cried through the airport and most of the way home, and that wasn\u2019t the worst bit.\u00a0 When I got home I felt lost.\u00a0\u00a0 My house feels so empty.\u00a0\u00a0 I\u2019m tired, I\u2019m emotional and I hate that they are gone.\u00a0\u00a0 My new bedroom doesn\u2019t feel<\/em> like our bedroom.\u00a0 We renovated it, slept in it for 2-3 nights and since then it\u2019s been my parents\u2019 room.\u00a0\u00a0 I\u2019ve gone in there a few times but I felt sort of like when I was 13 and would go into my parents bedroom, it doesn\u2019t have that MINE feel.\u00a0 Now my bedroom still feels like the blow up bed in the spare room.<\/p>\n

I know this is normal and that I even said myself<\/a> a few weeks ago that it\u2019s one of the stages expats go through when family visit and then leave again, but goddamn it\u2026 it really sucks.\u00a0\u00a0 My husband is being a total sweetheart, but there\u2019s nothing even he can do to change this loneliness I feel right now.<\/p>\n

Nobody other than another expat can understand the feelings and thoughts that we have when our loved ones go away again.\u00a0 Wondering when we\u2019ll meet up again and hoping they stay safe and healthy until then.\u00a0\u00a0 Not to mention the feeling that comes with getting a small reminder of what COULD be if you lived closer to your family.\u00a0 It was so nice to have my mother here where I could show her things, get her opinion on thoughts I had for the house and all the things other women take for granted and get to do on a daily basis with their mothers.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ll be fine tomorrow, or maybe the next day.\u00a0 Things will get back to normal in the house, the dogs will stop looking for them, and I\u2019ll stop looking over at my empty sofa and wishing they were there\u2026 I know this.<\/p>\n

I just wish that knowledge would make TODAY a little easier.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

If you had asked me a month ago if I had any space in my house I would have laughed.\u00a0 Between me, the pets, my husband and all our furniture I felt like we were completely crowded. I SO wish I felt that way again right now. My parents left this morning and if I\u2019m …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1745,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8,5,6,19],"tags":[26,9,105,244,57],"class_list":["post-1744","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","","category-life-in-nl","category-man-thats-sad","category-tantrums-rants","category-weightloss","tag-foad-thursday","tag-homesickness","tag-make-me-cry","tag-parents","tag-rants"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1744","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1744"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1744\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5108,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1744\/revisions\/5108"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1745"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1744"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1744"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.canadutch.nl\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1744"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}